Dipping

I'm starting to dip. I really had a handle on things and had taken ownership of the crushing loneliness of being a stay-at-home mom. I had events, I had plans, I had a schedule... but now I'm starting to dip again.

How the heck to women do this? How do they enjoy doing this? I want to be an active force in my children's lives, I want to be there for them, but for glory's sake, why does it suck so bad? I can't finish a book, an article, even a thought. I haven't done something that I enjoy in months. At least the holidays are coming soon.